Once again...

Well, of course, while at least one of those annoying little self-fulfilling prophecies would inevitably rear its ugly little head, it was not altogether completely intentional. I'm either just that good, or the little voices in my head decided to silence themselves for a while. Honestly, I can't decide which is the better alternative.

In the time I've "been away", my head has felt close to exploding so many times. I haven't written anything in so long that just doing this seems like an accomplishment. I guess, in a way, it is. However, I believe very strongly that even though I am quite mentally stable (Save the laughs for later, please!), sometimes I feel a little schizophrenic. Or bi-polar. Maybe even a touch of multiple personality disorder. Either way, I sincerely hope revamping this blog (A word I still dislike immensely.) will help in some way.

Let me back up a bit and explain why I decided to go this route again. It is March 9th, 2011 and currently 11:32 pm. Lent has just begun and, as many who know me can attest, I am not much one for following traditional Christian ideology. But this seems like a good time for a little self-re-evaluation. I've decided to give up cigarettes for 40 days, even though I've started late. I decided to delve deeper into myself too. What that will become, I honestly have no idea. And I decided to try to become a better person. I want to be proud of me. Simple as that.

Now as for why I would decide to air all of my personal laundry on the worldwide inner-google-twitter that hosts this blog (ack), well... To be honest:
1. My handwriting can start out very nice and neat, but after not too long, will warp and twist into something resembling an Ood.
2. Since I don't necessarily want to write it all out, typing seems to be the only other alternative.
3. I cannot allow myself to be sequestered in my own mind. I could keep each entry locked tight in a folder marked 'Taxes' where it would never see the light of day, but I don't think it wold accomplish anything.
4. I will need help.

Yes, this will become exactly what I named it: a Blog of Inane Chatter. Yes, I will probably embarrass the living shite out of myself and make other people angry. But as I've said before, I am prepared for that. Yes, it may become drivel, but I HAVE to do this.

Thanks.